As much as we have discussed at
The Sorcerer's World
that the life/death conundrum is part of a
natural cycle, I remain at least 50% unconvinced. Visions I have had
consistently over the years have spoken of what amounts to a flaw in
the matrix - the flaw being that we are made of temporal inorganic
goo that breaks down all too quickly, instead of the starstuff of
the Infinite & Eternal. The universe is not normally so inefficient
with energy, so why now? Granted, we have the ability to
overcome that "flaw" through our creation of an inorganic body of
energy (the double),
yet the flaw in the matrix remains.
The program of "Life" crashes
just when it gets up to speed.
I have wondered of late if the whole biz about 2012 being "the end
of time" (not the end of the world, just the end of time) has
something to do with that flaw being somehow "corrected" on a
universal scale. Might even tie into one of my own ongoing riddles:
"You have to be immortal before you will know how to
become immortal." If we were immortal, Time would
cease to exist. Think about it. We create Time, and in
doing so, become its mortal prisoners.
I know my comments fly in the face of our most deep-rooted program -
the belief system that says "all things die". And yet... (I keep
repeating those words), if we don't challenge our most intrinsic
programs, if we don't at least ask the question, we may be missing
opportunities that cannot exist until we open the door of
As warriors, we go through life challenging our programs,
stalking ourselves with ruthless intent, dismantling belief systems,
and (hopefully) emerging with a shifted assemblage point that allows
us to see the world and its illusions for what they are.
Why is it, then, that most warriors seem unwilling or unable to
challenge The Grandaddy GrandPooBah Program of All Programs: the
idea that "all things die"? Is it simply that the program is that
deeply ingrained in us, or is it that we fear even looking at the
equation of our own finite mortal existence? Are we in denial as
individuals, or only as a species? Can one determined monkey
engineer a paradigm shift by proving the earth really isn't flat, or
is the desire of the other monkeys to go on living on that flat
earth so overwhelming that the one monkey has no power over the
matrix at all, but only over herself? Do all things
die, or do we only believe this because the program tells us it is
For the record, I am not certain in the least that the program is
accurate or inaccurate. It may turn out that "all things die", or it
may turn out that "only some things die as a result of going through
the motions of Death actually occurring." So, I am merely suggesting
that for as long as we accept it as an established fact we are
living on a flat earth because we have accepted that the earth
really is flat.
For as long as we wholly believe we are "beings who are going to
die", we live our lives in a manner that validates and creates the
foundation of that belief system. Who knows - maybe we really are
just mortal sacks of flesh and bone, but how would we even know if
an immortal were sitting
elbow-to-elbow with us in a dark movie theater? There are certainly
legends & rumors of beings who have passed into an energy body
without the dubious bother of actually passing through death.
What machination of Intent and Will would be involved in making that
transcendent leap with our awareness wholly intact, without actually
dying? Is this what is meant by "burning with the fire from within"
- going from our mortal body bag to a vessel of pure energy as a
matter of invocation (will)?
What I'm getting at here is that the biggest program of all seems to
be the one we accept almost without question. All things die.
I'm not so sure about that. Are you? Are you really?
COMMENT/QUESTION: I'm curious to know what
Orlando has to say on the subject. I imagine it'll be another of his
fine conundrums, eh?
When Wendy and I initially began this journey with Orlando on a
somewhat official level in November of 1994, he allowed us to
believe it was a quest for "immortality". Being human, we
interpreted that as meaning physical immortality, simply a
continuity of life in the existing body-form. He did nothing to
correct that idea, and in fact encouraged it for quite some time -
and with good reason. If he had said, "No way, impossible," chances
are very high we would have turned away and gone looking elsewhere,
because our mindset was such that we would not have accepted other
alternatives at that time. So, being a master stalker with infinite
patience, Orlando allowed us to believe what we needed to believe
while, at the same time, he was teaching us about eternal beings,
infinite awareness, getting past the eagle, vague references to "the
twin" (now understood to be the double), and so on. He simply
couched it in different terms so as to maintain
the hook he had with
Over the years, we began to realize the seeming impracticalities of
a physical-form immortal - namely that it would be highly at risk of
the earth were to be smashed by a wayward comet or the machinations
of some transient political administration. Also, over time, I began to actually
see the connection between Orlando and myself, and
finally - around 1998 or so - I clearly saw that he is
my double, who had been in the process of "dreaming me" for several
years at that point, though I had not been able to see that from a
more human-form perception. What all of this boiled down to was a
paradigm shift that caused me to realize that my teacher/mentor was
mySelf, and in order for that to Be, it meant I would
have to deal with the concept of an energy body as the vessel for my
"immortality", since Orlando was clearly something waaaaaaay other
than a human-form man. Therefore, on some level, it had to mean that
I myself was more than just a handful of chemicals and some water.
The process of assimilation took many twists and turns - and what it
all came down to was the realization that we cultivate our awareness
cohesion in the here
and now, but we store it in the energy-vessel of the
double so that it transcends the state of "death". We create our own
immortality through the double.
As to what Orlando has to say about it now...
"It is true there are
immortals among you who have transcended the organic form without
ever having passed through the portal which you call Death. There
are also eternal beings surrounding you in Infinity and Eternity -
singularities of consciousness who have lived and died a thousand
times within the span of a moment that can only be called Now. I can
tie on flesh that would appear altogether organic to you, but it is
a garment of starstuff and snowflakes and blue equations that have
no finite solution.
What is Death? It is the muse and the mystery
and the madness that chases all humans from the cradle to the grave.
And yet, if you are truthful with your Self beyond all limitations,
you will see that you do not need it anymore than you need feathers
on your wings.
"When a sorcerer learns the trick, the trick is
knowing that you have the power to transcend into Infinity from
either side of the portal. To the warrior who has become a woman of
Knowledge, we are inorganic beings without boundaries or
limitations. The sorcerer's trick is creating her twin on the far
side of the abyss, without fear of making the leap which removes all
doubt and terminates all separation. That leap may be made through
the portal of death, in the course of its natural time, or
altogether on this side of it, circumventing death altogether."
Orlando - January 15, 2006
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